cook? archuleta?

well though we already know who won but i must say i say if i were to choose, i really have no idea who it would be. i love both Davids!i wish there could be two idols so both Davids will win :p lol Archuleta is so cute! he looks like such a sweet and nice guy. Cook however is hot! that's all i can say bout him. hehe. as for voice...dua dua pun cun:p

this is my happiest season for American Idol. three of my favourites are in the top three! never happened before. looks like i have taste this season ;) not bad not bad. haha.

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CAMP !!! 5 more days to go !!!

counting down the days

Narnia and Prince Caspian = brilliant!

Promotional Management paper = did pretty well

Human Resource paper = coming up

Weather = cannot tahan

Ugly Betty = tonight! yay!

Meta camp 2 = cant wait! a week to go...whee...

i'm done...bye bye Law

aaahh....its such a relief that this crazy paper is over! but i feel like digging a hole and sink my head in! now all i want is a pass. that's it. no A nevermind. aarrgghh....studied for this like mad and ended up screwing it! geramnya....

but you know what, i trust in God that He'll give me a deserving result. honestly, the fact that i'm only answerable to God and that's what matters, makes me feel much better. i mean i did all i can with His help and i trust that He'll take care of the rest =)

this is so not my forte

for those who know me long enough will know that i'm one anti-education kinda person. arrgggh...just dont seem to see its rationale :p

this whole studying thing is giving me a headache and Law doesn't help any much less. the lecturer made it worst by giving notes that are ridiculously tough to comprehend and that without clear explainations. so how? well thank God for the power of internet though it didnt really clear my queries.

now as i'm still searching for more info, i've decided to check out on recipes for cupcakes. hehe. i've always wanted to try to bake these cute and pretty sweet-tasting-tiny-little-cakes but haven't found the time. so what better time to try than on my study break right? when i should be studying for that oh so alien subject. and the paper is coming up in 4days time. wuhoo...
no la....as tempting as it is, i wont bake them now. after finals maybe =)
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in the past one week, i realised i've been indulging in a lot of sweet stuff. it's like i have this craving for sweet things i.e jellies, yogurt-filled biscuits, cupcakes (ready made :p) and biscuits with chocolate spread, donuts, choco wafers and more to come i predict. the best part is my house is always complete with these supplies. hehehe

yuhoo....

it's my birthday! it's my birthday! haha.


and yes as queenie reminded me...i finally hit the big 2! i'm 20!! :p

oh Lord, i need you more than anything now

just as michelle said, its so hard to live up to the image of Christ. the responsibilty of bearing the image of Christ is so heavy. i ask myself "can i do it? can i perservere on?" it feels like i'm gonna disappoint Him and that doesn't feel good. how can i disappoint my Father after all that He's done for me? how could i?

oh Lord, strengthen me in days of darkness. teach me how to live a life that's pleasing to you. a life that upholds and glorifies You. may You lead me out of this darkness for i can bare it no more. in You i put my hope and trust and on You i lay all my burdens. Amen

unbelievable

i just cant seem to believe that there really exist this kind of people. maybe i've not met any till now that's why it's so hard to accept that people can do such things to others.

why?

i mean aren't there any feeling of remorse or sorry at all? it's like "look here everyone, this is all about me, me and me." c'mon stop being selfish. we live in a world where everything we do has its consequences and this will at least affect one if not all the people around us! btw i'm not saying this for myself alone but also for the others who are affected directly or indirectly by actions of some people, so to speak. i'm not emo or overly sensitive...i just feel that there's no point covering up anymore when there're no signs of change.

it's time to stop thinking bout yourself!! life of selfishness is just plain pathetic! stop and look around you, see how many people actually care and love you genuinely and really hope you'll change for the better. think!

how high is our tolerance level?

just finished talking to a friend bout her problems with her housemates. it got me thinking. it's just so hard sometimes to have to tolerate certain things. why do we have to tolerate things that are so intolerable?

there are times when i myself just feel like blurting out everything and anything without having to think of what and how i'll look and sound to people. there're some people whom i feel should be told off or yelled at or fired at. they deserve that knock on the head. immature? stupid? emo? sensitive? crazy? dont care!

but i cant not care. i care. just cant bring myself to do it.cant.

i think the basic and commnon reasons that stop us (rather stops me) from "exploding" are that we always want to keep that "nice" image we potray or to avoid straining a relationship or afraid of the post consequence(s) or afraid that others will change their perception of us. however most of all, i think we have to ask ourselves "Will God be happy?" the hesitation is actually the Holy Spirit stirring us that's why we stop to think before acting. there's a feeling of guilty-ness inside. which is good because it distinguishes us from the others. the Holy Spirit lives in us to giude and teach us what's right and wrong in the sight of our Father. to help mould us to reflect the image of Christ. on our own we will never be able to do it.

after talking so long, the only thing i could say to my friend was to pray and be patient. there's no such thing as dead end. there's always hope. God will make a way where there seems to be no way, He works in ways we cannot see, He will make a way. though it may seem silly to some but there's no problem to silly for God. so to my friend, keeping praying! =)

A Revolution

As promised, this are the details of the camp i mentioned. Seriously guys, come if you can. It's gonna be an experience you'll never forget =)

Camp name: 4:12 Revolution

Tagline: Dare to be Different

Host: WinGS, Cheras Baptist Church

Day and Time: 27 May, 2008 (Tuesday) till 30 May, 2008 (Friday)

Place: El Sanctuary, Melaka

Message: The 2nd Meta Youth Camp which we have all been waiting for - bigger and better! Hurry get your registration forms and be a part of a challenge which will cost your all. Don't forget to invite your friends!

OR...if u cant make it, help spread this to ur frens and families! hehe

Lord hear our cry

i just feel so exhausted with having so much to do in so little time. sometimes i get so tired that i just dont know what to do next and this usually happens after a long day at college. haha. like this morning, i totally had no idea what to wear to school today which is so not me. most mornings i wake up with an outfit in mind so i dont have to scramble through my cupboard for clothes. dont really fancy the idea of taking an hour to search for ONE outfit that's why i usually prepick my clothes. hehe

anyway...aside from that i'm also really excited about camp! its one thing i really look forward to this year =) to those who're wondering what camp i'm talking about, i'll give futher details in my next post. sorry really gotta run now =p

Luke 6: 27-28

it says "But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you."

wow..bless those who curse you and pray for those who mistreat you? but why? well...of course i know why but can i do it? i dont know. for now? i really dont know if i can do it.
then people will come and tell me "why cant u just get over it and let it go?" dont u think i want to do that too? this is really tiring fyi. and its not that easy. saying is easy but nobody will truly understand because the one who went through it was and is ME. its really not as simple as you think. a kid wont know the meaning of pain if he has not fallen and got himself injured.

however, dont get me wrong, in saying all that i'm not pointing fingers at others for not being understanding because unlike some, that's just not my style. i understand and have been in the position of others in cases like this where words are the only thing we can offer.

that is why i choose not to talk about it anymore cause i know there's no point. all i have to deal with now is myself. unfortunately..haha...i'm a pretty expressive kinda person. i will always want to share my feelings and thoughts, so for now the people i feel sorry for are my mum and brother for having to listen to me. hehe.
but still, God is my ultimate listener...He's the one i tell everything to because i know He can understand me more than anyone can and He wont get tired of listening to me, which is what i really need =)

how does it look?

ok..i got bored with my old template. not too sure if this one looks good.

need some feedback. what do u think?

they are slowly fading, sadly

i know i'm stress when i dont know what i'm doing or what i should do next. and that's what's been happening to me this week :p

yes, my i-think-i-can-fly pic is ridiculously retarded.

Happy Good Friday!

a boring but refreshing getaway

after much pestering from Ivory, we finally gave in. we went to Bukit Tinggi (yes, where the last church camp was held) last Thursday. honestly, it didnt turn out as bad as i thought it would be, surprisingly=)

besides eating and sleeping, there was nothing much we could do there. here's what we did:

Day 1 - arrived at 10.45, ate at around 11.15, took a nap from 12 till 4, ate again, took a stroll, ate, watched Mr Deeds (again!), sleep

Day 2 - woke up at around 8.30, ate breakfast, went to Colmar, Japanese Village and Rabbit park (yes, again! =p), ate lunch at 3, nap from 5 to
bout 7 plus, ate dinner at 8, cousins came for a stay, aunt brought more food...what else...eat la =p

Day 3 - woke up round 8sth, ate super filling breakfast, accompanied cousins to Colmar, Jap Village (that was my4th time!), got back to apt at 1, prepared lunch, ate, packed up and left at 4.

personally, out of everything, i enjoyed the shuttles rides the most. the cool and chilly air and the greens along the way made me feel so fresh ed. a kind of feeling that i can never get in KL. it was sort of an escape from the hustle and bustle of the city. no worries. no track of time. no assignments. no school. nice =)

just in case you're curious of how Bukit Tinggi looks like (which i doubt u are), photos are in my facebook.

blur me

you see..i dont have the habit of reading back whatever i wrote and thus i dont realise the numerous silly spelling and grammar mistakes i made =p haha. i only tend to read my posts days later and "look ivy, there's a mistake there, and there and there..." lol

now i know. read before you post. hehe

You're happy, I'm happy

there's always a time in life where we reach to a crossroad and we dont know which path to take. left? right? a dilemma i would say.

now, at the crossroad, the question is which path is the right one? for my case, it was whether to stand up for myself or do what pleases God. it was so tempting to do the former. i mean, who wouldn't ? it's a natural reaction when we're being treated unfairly especially by people we hold so dear to our heart. however, when the two choices were thrown to me, i immediately knew i wanted to please God more than anything else and that brought me to tears because that meant that i cant have justice for myself. BUT....the image of God smiling down at me and saying "Ivy, I am proud of you." gave me an indescribable feeling that confirmed my choice further. i want my Father in heaven and the God of the universe to be happy, pleased and ultimately glorified with the path i chose.

so what about the 'standing up for myself' part you'd ask. well...God will do that for me! when? i dont know. God works in His own timing and i believe that it will happen at the right time. after all He owns time, He can take as much time as He wants and who are we to question Him right. anyway, time will tell and we'll just have to wait and see =)

3Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. Romans 5:3-5

You are the Hope that leads me on

phew....is the summary my past week.

ever felt like there's just so much going on in your head and your mind just decides to shut off? well...i'm in that state right now. or rather has been since Sunday. heh.

you know there's just so much one can bare, the rest are really left to God. there's nothing much we humans can do than to hope and pray that our Almighty God will carry us through.

a humble reminder

contrary to our common views, i look at other's death as God' s reminder to us of how fragile our life can be sometimes. we have almost zero amount of control over it. the way i see it, life is like a lighted candle that has no idea whatsoever as to when a wind would come and just blow its light off and that's scary. God can choose to blow that light off anytime He wishes, after all it belongs to Him; He owns it.

however, if the end destination of our life is apparent, i don't see any reason why there should be fear. =)

business world madness

after yesterday's experience, i realised that the term "no money, no talk" really applies especially in the business world. a world of no emotions i call it. so unbelievable. sigh...heh

couldn't have done it without you

i have nothing much to say really except that it's kinda depressing that everything's back to normal after the somewhat long-awaited-chinese-new-year break has finally come to an end. lol

i'll try to post some pics of my CNY soon...next week maybe. i'll try. heh