never liked seasons like this

i've been feeling sick-ish since friday. it's like one day i feel like i'm gonna fall sick then the other i dont. the thing is i only feel sick when i'm at home. i guess my mum and sis contributed a lot to this...they practically contaminated the whole house especially the room. oh and the car too. ugh...

plus, there're like four assignments due in two weeks or less. and i cant believe i totally forgot i have one due next monday! thank God, i mean really thank Him, the lecturer extended the time to the following monday. i dont know what made her do that but i sure need that extra time :p

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on a side note, connexion conference and passion is this week! i hope that we'll continue to pray that both these events will see their goals accomplished...that through the love of Christ many hearts will be touched and lives saved. besides that, lets also pray that not only will these events change the hearts and lives of the non-believers but that they will also renew the lives of believers. that they will be renewed in their faith and passion for God.

this will be one exciting week :)

a time off would be do some help

the newspapers and news are getting insanely boring. every page you turn to it's bout politics and almost half of the time the news is talking bout politics. why cant these ppl get a life? is it that difficult to just for once not get on each others' nerves?

just turn on the news and you'll never miss out on what's 'new' in the parliment. ministers are insulting each other like nobody's business. that's just plain childish and lame. what's the point of voting for these ppl when all they care about is their own agendas and not serving the citizens as they 'promised' before the election. all empty promises.

personally, to be on the opposition side, questioning every single move of the government and make them sound as bad as possible is really easy. even i can do that...when nth better to do, i lsit down all the problems and then throw it all at the government to answer. it's so easy but try being in the government! things are not as simple. say solve means solve.
my mum used to say "these ppl complain so much but asked to take care of own family also they not capable, what more a country." i feel that's really true...humans always tend to see the speck of dust in others' eyes but the plank in their own they cant.

i may sound so pro government but i'm not all that against the oppositions. no doubt each country will not progress without oppostitions to point out the flaws of the ruling goverment, so it's as vital to have them around but it becomes sickening when certain individual leaders try to go against the government for personal benefits, gains and power.

a respected leader be it from the government or oppositions should try acting like one before asking us to vote for them. stop being so childish.

wow..it's been a while since i wrote a long post. lol

Josh Harris #2

ok so i dont really have like a sequel of this to put numbering to my posts. anyway, i'm done reading I Kissed Dating Goodbye and considering that i'm not a reader, reading a book in itself is an achievement what more finishing it :p

so here's what i've gathered from reading that book and trust me every young adults on this planet should read this. it just gives you a clear idea nd understanding of what a true and 'correct' relationship should be. and for the Christians, this book really outlines and defines the kind of relationship that God would like us to have...one that mirrors Him.

here's the summary:
the key foundation to a relationship is commitment and the reward of this commitment is the joy of intimacy (i'm just paraphrasing Harris's line)not vice versa which is contrary to the perception of the world today. tons of young people today think that "oh..if we start getting close (holding hands, hugging, kissing and even sex), he or she will eventually commit to me" or that by doing all these they will help sustain the relationship. wrong.
when someone gets into a relationship without commitment and marriage in mind, that selfish person is actually robbing. what? robbing? yup robbing...in a sense that he is robbing that 'gf' of his from her future husband which God has predestined her to be with. instead of giving her whole self to her husband on the wedding day, this guy has robbed part if not full of her from her husband. same goes to a girl.

Harris gave a clearer view on this through a letter sent by one of his readers. this girls wrote to him telling Harris of a dream she had. in her dream, it was her wedding day. she walked down the isle with joy in her heart knowing that she was finally marrying the mand she loved. after the vows and all, the pastor asked if anyone rejected their marriage. a girl in the congregation stood up, walked to the front and stood beside the groom. then this was followed by a couple more girls and they made a line beside the groom. so the bride asked with tears in her eye, "what's going on?". the groom answered "i'm sorry but these are the girls that i once gave (heart, soul, mind, love, care) myself to and now i can only give you what's left of me."

personally, as i read that and thought the bride must have felt like a stab in her chest. it hurts. it really does and so that is why God asked us to wait upon Him patiently and when the right time comes, He will reveal the person you're supposed to spent your life with.

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this book does not discourage dating or courtship as the title might indicate, rather it gives triggers our minds to think and evaluate how we can be pure in our minds, soul and body so that we can give our whole to our husbands or wives.

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here's an irony : i'm now reading PS I Love You.

it's just for fun la :p haha. i've always wanted to read this since it's such a big hit.

Josh Harris #1

so...i have been reading I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Josh Harris this week and i'm only half way through yet this book has already spoken so much.

"Intimacy without commitment contradicts what the Bible teaches about true love. Instead of being selfless, it's selfish; instead of being patient, it's impatient; instead of looking out for the ongoing good of the other person, it's focused on the needs of the moment."

"Where is true love found? It's found in God's brand of love-love founded on faithfulness, love rooted in commitment."

"The joy of intimacy is the reward of commitment"

Joshua Harris

this is a story of girl

as i look back, i've realised that i've changed quite a bit the past half a year. how?

• learnt to look at things not only for a one sided point of view but to also look at them from the other perspectives...why only look at one side of the cube when it has four sides?
• learnt not to take things too seriously that sometimes i feel like i've lost the wow-ness for things =(
• to understand or at least try to understand that people do something for a reason
• learnt to look for the 'positives' in people....not easy you know :p but at least it makes life happier =)
• forgiveness...it makes me happier and less drained...if u haven't known, it's really tiring being angry :p

hmm...thats's quite a bit of a learning there huh. well....it's all part of His great plan, The Ivy Mak's Life Plan. haha. but yea...all that had happened is God-allowed and He simply allows them to happen so that i could learn these life lessons that ultimately moves me a step forward in this life plan of mine.

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i've just sent like 10 fun toys, 8 hugs, 5 teddy bears and 15 lil green roseys on facebook .

and i'm gettin annoyed with the curiosity i get each time i hear a sms coming in only to open and see: "subscribe Fuyoh get a 5% rebate or type EURO to win this price that price. sender: Digi" -_-

to God be the Glory

i believe all who went for the camp can testify that it was a terrific experience =) besides the good food, great worship, "breath taking" games :p and powerful sermon, God was there. He was there all the time with us...we could see how He worked through the each and everyone of them.

i mean what better place to be than to spend four days with our brothers and sisters in Christ in a camp and to have just pure clean and crazy fun. but at the same time bonded through one purpose....to glorify the Almighty and to acknowledge that He is the King of this universe!

i just couldn't hold back my tears to see simple gestures in the youths such as lifting their hands during worship. gestures so simple yet so overwhelming to see that these young people are actually acknowledging their Father above as the Almighty...One who deserves all glory and honour!! even as i write this now its so hard to hold back the tears to see how many lives and hearts were touched through this camp. indeed His understanding no one can fathom.

and yes...i still cant believe how small we are compared to Him who made it all!

TO GOD BE ALL THE GLORY!!

cook? archuleta?

well though we already know who won but i must say i say if i were to choose, i really have no idea who it would be. i love both Davids!i wish there could be two idols so both Davids will win :p lol Archuleta is so cute! he looks like such a sweet and nice guy. Cook however is hot! that's all i can say bout him. hehe. as for voice...dua dua pun cun:p

this is my happiest season for American Idol. three of my favourites are in the top three! never happened before. looks like i have taste this season ;) not bad not bad. haha.

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CAMP !!! 5 more days to go !!!

counting down the days

Narnia and Prince Caspian = brilliant!

Promotional Management paper = did pretty well

Human Resource paper = coming up

Weather = cannot tahan

Ugly Betty = tonight! yay!

Meta camp 2 = cant wait! a week to go...whee...

i'm done...bye bye Law

aaahh....its such a relief that this crazy paper is over! but i feel like digging a hole and sink my head in! now all i want is a pass. that's it. no A nevermind. aarrgghh....studied for this like mad and ended up screwing it! geramnya....

but you know what, i trust in God that He'll give me a deserving result. honestly, the fact that i'm only answerable to God and that's what matters, makes me feel much better. i mean i did all i can with His help and i trust that He'll take care of the rest =)

this is so not my forte

for those who know me long enough will know that i'm one anti-education kinda person. arrgggh...just dont seem to see its rationale :p

this whole studying thing is giving me a headache and Law doesn't help any much less. the lecturer made it worst by giving notes that are ridiculously tough to comprehend and that without clear explainations. so how? well thank God for the power of internet though it didnt really clear my queries.

now as i'm still searching for more info, i've decided to check out on recipes for cupcakes. hehe. i've always wanted to try to bake these cute and pretty sweet-tasting-tiny-little-cakes but haven't found the time. so what better time to try than on my study break right? when i should be studying for that oh so alien subject. and the paper is coming up in 4days time. wuhoo...
no la....as tempting as it is, i wont bake them now. after finals maybe =)
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in the past one week, i realised i've been indulging in a lot of sweet stuff. it's like i have this craving for sweet things i.e jellies, yogurt-filled biscuits, cupcakes (ready made :p) and biscuits with chocolate spread, donuts, choco wafers and more to come i predict. the best part is my house is always complete with these supplies. hehehe

yuhoo....

it's my birthday! it's my birthday! haha.


and yes as queenie reminded me...i finally hit the big 2! i'm 20!! :p

oh Lord, i need you more than anything now

just as michelle said, its so hard to live up to the image of Christ. the responsibilty of bearing the image of Christ is so heavy. i ask myself "can i do it? can i perservere on?" it feels like i'm gonna disappoint Him and that doesn't feel good. how can i disappoint my Father after all that He's done for me? how could i?

oh Lord, strengthen me in days of darkness. teach me how to live a life that's pleasing to you. a life that upholds and glorifies You. may You lead me out of this darkness for i can bare it no more. in You i put my hope and trust and on You i lay all my burdens. Amen

unbelievable

i just cant seem to believe that there really exist this kind of people. maybe i've not met any till now that's why it's so hard to accept that people can do such things to others.

why?

i mean aren't there any feeling of remorse or sorry at all? it's like "look here everyone, this is all about me, me and me." c'mon stop being selfish. we live in a world where everything we do has its consequences and this will at least affect one if not all the people around us! btw i'm not saying this for myself alone but also for the others who are affected directly or indirectly by actions of some people, so to speak. i'm not emo or overly sensitive...i just feel that there's no point covering up anymore when there're no signs of change.

it's time to stop thinking bout yourself!! life of selfishness is just plain pathetic! stop and look around you, see how many people actually care and love you genuinely and really hope you'll change for the better. think!

how high is our tolerance level?

just finished talking to a friend bout her problems with her housemates. it got me thinking. it's just so hard sometimes to have to tolerate certain things. why do we have to tolerate things that are so intolerable?

there are times when i myself just feel like blurting out everything and anything without having to think of what and how i'll look and sound to people. there're some people whom i feel should be told off or yelled at or fired at. they deserve that knock on the head. immature? stupid? emo? sensitive? crazy? dont care!

but i cant not care. i care. just cant bring myself to do it.cant.

i think the basic and commnon reasons that stop us (rather stops me) from "exploding" are that we always want to keep that "nice" image we potray or to avoid straining a relationship or afraid of the post consequence(s) or afraid that others will change their perception of us. however most of all, i think we have to ask ourselves "Will God be happy?" the hesitation is actually the Holy Spirit stirring us that's why we stop to think before acting. there's a feeling of guilty-ness inside. which is good because it distinguishes us from the others. the Holy Spirit lives in us to giude and teach us what's right and wrong in the sight of our Father. to help mould us to reflect the image of Christ. on our own we will never be able to do it.

after talking so long, the only thing i could say to my friend was to pray and be patient. there's no such thing as dead end. there's always hope. God will make a way where there seems to be no way, He works in ways we cannot see, He will make a way. though it may seem silly to some but there's no problem to silly for God. so to my friend, keeping praying! =)

A Revolution

As promised, this are the details of the camp i mentioned. Seriously guys, come if you can. It's gonna be an experience you'll never forget =)

Camp name: 4:12 Revolution

Tagline: Dare to be Different

Host: WinGS, Cheras Baptist Church

Day and Time: 27 May, 2008 (Tuesday) till 30 May, 2008 (Friday)

Place: El Sanctuary, Melaka

Message: The 2nd Meta Youth Camp which we have all been waiting for - bigger and better! Hurry get your registration forms and be a part of a challenge which will cost your all. Don't forget to invite your friends!

OR...if u cant make it, help spread this to ur frens and families! hehe

Lord hear our cry

i just feel so exhausted with having so much to do in so little time. sometimes i get so tired that i just dont know what to do next and this usually happens after a long day at college. haha. like this morning, i totally had no idea what to wear to school today which is so not me. most mornings i wake up with an outfit in mind so i dont have to scramble through my cupboard for clothes. dont really fancy the idea of taking an hour to search for ONE outfit that's why i usually prepick my clothes. hehe

anyway...aside from that i'm also really excited about camp! its one thing i really look forward to this year =) to those who're wondering what camp i'm talking about, i'll give futher details in my next post. sorry really gotta run now =p

Luke 6: 27-28

it says "But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you."

wow..bless those who curse you and pray for those who mistreat you? but why? well...of course i know why but can i do it? i dont know. for now? i really dont know if i can do it.
then people will come and tell me "why cant u just get over it and let it go?" dont u think i want to do that too? this is really tiring fyi. and its not that easy. saying is easy but nobody will truly understand because the one who went through it was and is ME. its really not as simple as you think. a kid wont know the meaning of pain if he has not fallen and got himself injured.

however, dont get me wrong, in saying all that i'm not pointing fingers at others for not being understanding because unlike some, that's just not my style. i understand and have been in the position of others in cases like this where words are the only thing we can offer.

that is why i choose not to talk about it anymore cause i know there's no point. all i have to deal with now is myself. unfortunately..haha...i'm a pretty expressive kinda person. i will always want to share my feelings and thoughts, so for now the people i feel sorry for are my mum and brother for having to listen to me. hehe.
but still, God is my ultimate listener...He's the one i tell everything to because i know He can understand me more than anyone can and He wont get tired of listening to me, which is what i really need =)

how does it look?

ok..i got bored with my old template. not too sure if this one looks good.

need some feedback. what do u think?

they are slowly fading, sadly

i know i'm stress when i dont know what i'm doing or what i should do next. and that's what's been happening to me this week :p

yes, my i-think-i-can-fly pic is ridiculously retarded.

Happy Good Friday!