female therapy

can't wait for tomorrow!!

time for some shopping!

weee.....

Dearest Father,

Teach me to trust you with everything I have and don't have

Guide me in every step I take that I may not walk in my own path but Yours

Show me how to surrender it all to You

Remind me each day that You are in control of everything

And that Your plans are for the best

Help to me to be patient and to persevere in all circumstances

To wait on You

Most of all give me Your strength, wisdom and understanding

That I may not rely on my own

Amen

acquired taste

so i came across this article reposted by ashley greig on her facebook wall and though as the years passed and i've slowly lost interest in going gaga over actors, felt this that this list needed some modification :p

so, if i were the editor, i would edit the list to this:

Glamour's top 20 Sexiest Men of 2010

1. Chace Crawford

2. Ian Somerhalder

3. Ed Westwick

4. Josh Duhamel

5. David Beckham

6. Justin Timberlake

7. Brad Pitt

8. Paul Walker

9. Orlando Bloom

10. Ryan Seacrest

11. Robert Pattinson

12. Joseph Gordon-Levitt (only as Arthur in Inception :p)

13. Hugh Jackman

14. Patrick Dempsey

15. Kellan Lutz

16. Kimmi Raikonen

17. Cristiano Ronaldo

18. Hayden Christensen

19. Channing Tatum

20. Will Smith

ok this is really subjective and the above list is probably more like my personal list but if you ask me, there'd actually be only one name in MY list that is Chace Crawford! :) the other names were pretty tough to come up with especially from number ten downwards. haha. justin bieber and chris brown shouldn't have been in the list at all :p

lol. sorry for this yet another random post. i shall stop right here and leave you with these pictures :)

look at him!! swoons......

He is jealous for me

i guess you might be wondering what's with the frequent posts recently. guess what? i'm wondering too :p lol

so i was reading my previous posts and went all the way back to when i first started blogging. haha. i dont know what to feel when reading what i wrote. i guess its a mixture of feelings. there were some that i was embarrassed by, some impressed with, some got me thinking, some reminded about stuff and some made me laugh. as i read certain posts, i wondered could things be any different if i acted or reacted differently. im sure it could but i would not be the person i am today if things were different. when you allow God to work in and take control of your life, you'd be surprise at the outcome. i thank God for all that has happened be it good or bad. it has allowed me to grow both mentally and spiritually.

i was kinda embarrassed at the fact that i can be emotional at times and i cant believe i actually shared those emo times in the public. lol. though it wasn't like public public kinda thing, still...you wouldn't know who actually reads your blog :p anyway...the past is past. i think at those times i just needed to vent. haha. another thing i realised is that i seem to write better last time, my writing skills have gotten worse...yikes! i think that implies time for more reading :p

on another note, i've been going and getting out of bed with a song in my head. i dont know if it has been this way all along and i didn't realise or is it a new thing. haha. like this morning, i got up with How He Loves Us by david crowder and it's been in my head till now :p the funny thing is the songs that're in my head keeps repeating a certain line/phrase/paragraph. i never 'sing' the whole song in my head. why ah? lol.

the one artist that i absolutely try to prevent from getting his songs stuck in my head is justin bieber/beaver whichever sounds better :p cannot tahan him. i dont know what do girls see in him. thank God my sister is not one of them or i'd make her sleep outside. lol

random note: next friday's public holiday for me!! wee..... go jalan-jalan!! =)

that spiky and smelly thing

so for all you durian lovers (that includes me!) out there, here're some info about the fruit that might you be interested to know and may be happy to learn that it's not all that bad :)

a) durians have no cholesterol

b) more recently, nutritionists have claimed that durians can even help to lower cholesterol, cleanse blood, cure jaundice and alleviate fever

c) they are also packed with amino acid, vitamin B, E, a whole lot of vitamin C and contains high level of anti-oxidant which decreases the effect of aging

d) durians make us happy! - they contain tryptophan that is essential for making and maintaining serotonin levels in our body. the serotonin hormone functions to regulate our happiness

e) concoctions made from the leaves of a durian tree can help reduce swelling and cure skin diseases

f) rich source of potassium that helps to control heart rate and blood pressure

g) also rich in dietary fiber - eases defecation

now we know, as unhealthy as durians look and sound, behind those stinky-spiky-weird-looking fruit is a whole lot of goodness that most of us aren't aware of =D

ps: it's the peak of the durian season now. go get a durian!

God has such a sense of humor

check this out and you'll know why the above statement was quoted. lol

the dream is real

Inception was brilliant! I can't recall when was the last time I actually said a movie was good much less brilliant but boy, was this worth the $$ =)) And personally I think it beats Avatar hands down. Leonardo is the perfect guy for role and Gordon-Levitt = lurveee

come fly with me, let's fly let's fly away

this post marks my 101th!! wee.... =) plus, this would be somewhat a random post as well since i have nothing to do now :p so what better way to pass your free time in the office than to scribble down random, non-relevant, uninteresting and point-less thoughts. hehe.

ps: i can hear my colleague outside giggling to herself watching a video/clip online.

note: boss not around

Random #1

so we had dinner at bumbu bali last night to celebrate bryan's farewell before he leaves for the States next week. it was quite a nice dinner i would say. great atmosphere for fellowship and dinner. we got the whole of 2nd floor to ourselves for almost half the time we were there. hehe. food wasn't too bad only a little pricey. i dont think i'd go there for no special reason simply because i didn't think the food was that special for that sort of pricing. oh well...that's just my personal thought don't know bout others :)

Random #2

i can't find my clincher!! my one and only clincher!! :( in case you're wondering what a clincher looks like, here it is. now i have to get a new one and it's not easy shopping for a suitable waist clincher! but if i don't, i can't wear some of my loose dresses without looking like a pregnant woman -_-

Random #3

i got myself my first ever fits-me-well pumps last week! yay! after a couple pairs of 'failed' pumps, i was thinking hard whether should i give it another shot. some must be wondering what's the big deal bout buying a pair of shoes. you see, the past few times i bout a pair of pumps, they always ended up to tight and gave me blisters. BUT i really would love to have a pair of pumps as i can't seem to wear heels too long anymore and the only flats that i have are my flip flops and sandals which are not really appropriate for certain occasions. so yea...

anyway...i'm glad i finally got one that fits me well though it does give me a lil blister, other than that the size is just nice :)

oh...it's purple! mua favourite color =) hehe

Random #4

i need a punjabi suit soon! it's for my grandcousin's wedding next month. still contemplating whether i should just call up my friend whom i last saw on my birthday last year :p to borrow one of hers or should i just buy one myself. hmm....

Random #5

there's a big bag of hershey's in the office kitchen right now and it makes me very happy! :)) i think there's at least one month's supply of chocos in there! i would be eating most of it i think, dont think the adults would appreciate them as much as i would :p kekeke

Random #6

there's this annoying photobucket sign/notice/pop-up/virus or whatever you call it that's in the way of my blog when you read it. i dont know how to get rid of it. so annoying its right in the middle of the page. if anyone knows how to take it away, let me know please.

Random #7

i have nothing more else to say, i'll just stop here. toodles

what we do when the boss in not around

here's the thing, my office only consists of four people including me. i'm seated in a room on my own, my boss (so called la but i dont report to him) is seated in the room next to mine while my two other colleagues are seated just outside the boss' room where he can clearly see every move they make. lol. so whenever the boss is around there's an awkward silence in the office except for the sound of the photocopy/printing machine making noise each time something is photocopied or printed. but then as soon as you hear my lady colleague talking in a louder tone, you'll know for sure that the boss has gone out. her voice is like my indicator since i can't see when the boss leaves. haha

so usually he'll be around in the morning till bout 11/12pm then he goes out till bout 3/4pm. ahh...this is the time we have the most fun in the office :p my colleague and i (mostly her actually) will talk and talk and talk till she runs out of breath. lemme just show a list of what we did just a while ago before i sat down to write this post. lol

1) talked bout I/C (she couldn't find hers and thought it was lost when it's in one of compartments of her wallet)
2) talked bout how we spend money like its water
3) went on to credit cards
4) then came to her fav topic: her son
4.1 read his blog together (he asked her to)
4.2 talked bout how teenagers these days
4.3 she introduced to me 'Gloomy Sunday'
4.4 talked bout his friends

so yea, basically that was what we did the pass an hour and half :p but dont be mistaken, we only this when we have nothing to do. haha

speaking of Gloomy Sunday, apparently it's called The Suicide Song. it seems that many suicide cases amongst young people were associated to this song saying that those who listened to this song over and over again eventually committed suicide. when i heard that i became scared :p so when she asked me whether i wanted to hear it, i was like "No thanks" haha. and it didnt help that i watched the case of the assassination of senator aquino (one of philippines' most influential leaders)on History channel last night. it's weird. somehow i get scared after listening to such stories. haha. it was quite funny actually, i was so scared that i didn't even dare to go to bed by myself so i waited for my sister to finish bathing and rushed her to bed so we could go upstairs together :p

anyway, if anyone's curious how Gloomy Sunday sounds like, listen to it here.

in Him I place my trust

sigh...

this month has been somewhat depressing with all the unfortunate events that happened to people i know. deaths, accidents, break-in....
it's times like these that tell us that our life is so fragile and that anything can happen at anytime. we just have to learn to trust in the Lord. it's definitely easier said than done but i guess we just have to stand firm in our faith in Him and trusting that He knows what's best for us.

to those going through hard times at this moment, i pray that you'll find strength in Him to not lose heart. know that you're not alone. persevere. stand firm. have faith.

it's all about the timing people

a lil update from the writer :p

so finally results are out! but it wasn't like i was eagerly waiting for it or anything :p they're not too bad really :) it's really God's blessing seriously! imagine, my highest score is for the subject i struggled most. at one point in the exam i didnt know what else to write after writing all that i knew and it was very sure it wasnt sufficient..can u believe it?! haha

ok so that's that. then, there's M3TA camp which was last week. it was awesome! i told my mum that our youth camp gets better each time. i bet Meta 4 will be a bom! =D nevertheless, the glory is all His to give! no Jesus no camps. 'nuf said =)

then came the not so good news. just the morning right after camp, i received a call from my aunt saying that we had to cancel the surprise farewell party that we planned to happen on that coming saturday. reason, this would definitely have not crossed my mind, my relatives died in a car crash just hours earlier. well, i dont know them really, only met once or twice but here's how we're sort of related: the dad is my granduncle's brother and the son who died, Joash is my cousin's church friend. so naturally you can guess that my cousin wouldn't have wanted a party. my family and i were saying that never in our wildest dreams would we have thought that such a tragic thing could happen to people we know. that day was kinda depressing really and we kept receiving updates from my granduncle which made it a gloomier day. im quite sure that Joash was one of those that was supposed to come for the party but too bad he couldn't make it. anyway, i heard the remaining family that are still alive are slowly recuperating but continue to pray for them.

i'm actually thinking how should i continue this post after what was written above. so i shall just continue with then.... :)

i've just started work this monday and in my fifth day at work :p first couple of days were such a dread. why? firstly, i had no idea real accounting is this complicated! before i started work, my aunt said it's kacang putih only (i'm actually replacing her friend's place when she goes for maternity leave in less than a month's time)...aiyo...what kacang putih, kacang hitam ah! :p lol. spm and college accounting is nth compared to the real one. haha. secondly, i simply dont like office jobs. this whole 9-5 thing doesnt appeal to me. thirdly, filing and numbers makes my head spin :p

anyway, it has gotten better by the day. by His grace and mercy that is =)

ps: my senior (the one im replacing) just woke up from her nap :p and is now on the phone with my aunt. lol

my cousin's leaving to australia this sunday!!! :( first among our cousins to go out of the country to study. haha. i'll definitely miss her!! :( BUT...i hope to join her next year (if God willings) =))

i love this pic!! <3

you want it all but you can't get it all

1) done with another chapter of my life. well, almost. when the results are out then im officially done with degree =)

2) 'so you think you can dance' is officially my favourite reality show! beats AI hands down :p

3) my sister and i googled the whole cast of 'the nanny' last nigt. weird huh. haha

4) can't wait to get hold of Glee's latest season!

5) going penang, prob next week or the week after...wee....

6) looking for someone that i can borrow from 'the notebook'. hehe

7) excited bout M3ta camp!!! :))

ilovefood

cooking dinner tonight!! =))

every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

check out this clip of Christian the lion.

it's a true story and by just watching this short clip, i was touched to tears. it was a sweet reunion =) the story of this reunion has many versions to it on youtube but i personally like this version the best. the background song gives it more impact. just listen to the words of the song and watch the video and i'm quite sure if it doesn't make you cry, it'll at least make you wanna cry.

new year, new look

yup.

just as the title suggests, i've just changed my blog's look =)

wanted to keep it simple this time round

and can't seem to find anything

related to puzzles but came across

this banner and thought it looks

pretty =)

so there you go!

new look for the year!

an adventure to remember

yesterday was federal territory day and the whole of KL got public holiday so we decided to go for a roadtrip. cut long story short..there we were at broga hill, semenyih. honestly, i really didnt expect climbing it was gonna be that tough. somehow from the pictures i see from friends who have climbed it i thought it was gonna be easy...sap sap sui la i thought :p
we reached there around 10am (i think cause none of us checked the time we arrived) which was not a very good time cause the sun was already up and ppl usually hike up to watch sunrise. ok, nvm that it was sunny and we were all sweating like crazy by 10mins, it was the terrain that was the challenge. now that im typing this only i realised that yesterday was my first time ever hiking...woohoo!! haha.

so for a first timer like me, the hike up was a great challenged. i'd never dared climb anything that's steep and by that i mean like 70-75% steep. basically your butt is showing straight to the person behind you as you try to push your body forward as much possible so you wont fall back :p



anyway, we did made it up the hill (kinda). a few went all the way up to the peek but the rest went three quarter and one (which was me) stopped at slightly below three quarter. lol. i still consider that an achievement ok :p coming down was rather easy and somewhat fun-er that going up.

after broga we headed for lunch at the town for pan mee, cendol and ice kacang (recommended by kai seng, the semenyih-ian).


after which, we decided to head for sungai gabai waterfall, which we all thought was not too far. we were all proven wrong when it finally took us one solid hour to get there from semenyih! the place was pretty nice. we had a good time there :) cold chilly water was what we needed from the burn we got from climbing the hill. haha


all in all, it was an awesome day with awesome ppl :)) as i said in my twitter, no matter where the destination is the company you have is what matters most to make a memorable time.

p/s: thanks a bunch to our drivers, tim and wilson for driving us! we know how tough it is to manoeuver a van loaded with 11 ppl under the hot and humid weather. so thank you! :)

hola! :)

my gosh...finally!! i've not been able to access blogspot ever since my last post due to i dont know what. in fact, i've not been able to access google or any google related sites. so when ivan said he fixed something yesterday and he could access his gmail, i thought i'd just give blogspot a shot and...wa la! here i am. lol

so...it's 2010 already (i know i'm kinda slow, blame google :p). yup, yet another year. so sad :( you look back and go "oh my, i cant believe that that was last year!" i have this love-hate thing bout moving into a new year. a new year first of all reminds me that i'm another year older and trust me, i do feel it, now that this would be the third year my age starts with a 2. i've never really thought of it until i suddenly realized that i've only got so much time left to do things that you'd only enjoy doing in your 20s...if you get what i mean :p
and then there're all these uncertain things ahead of you as each new year unfolds. i for one, dislike changes. i know of many who just cant wait to see what awaits them but unfortunately i'm not of one them. i've always thought changes to be 'ma fan' and depressing. although i've been proven wrong many times, i still dont like changes :p

ok so new years are not so bad after all. this is when things you've planned or looked forward to last year could take place right? =) there're probably as many if not more positive stuff that we normally look forward to as each new year arrives.

oh well, bottom line is, God is in control of every thing and all we little people of this earth have to do is very simple, trust. i know it's easier said than done. i myself fall short of this all the time and have to be constantly reminded.
Note to myself: He knows what's He doing ok, He's God after all! so learn to let go and let the driver take control of the wheel! :)

phew...that's a whole chunk of words. lol

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check this sound out! it's my song for the week though not like i have song for each week :p haha but yea..it got me singing (in my head) the whole week :)

Vanilla Twilight - Owl City

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going Genting with cousins this sunday!! yup, genting again -_- but but this would be our first time without our parents!! weee...hehe =)

here comes the weekend!

my way of showing love ♥

the names i give and call her:

fatty, fei por, montel (chubby in malay), budak, small mechanic,

perempuan, girl, granny pants

...latest one (as at last night) rafflesia

she is.......

IVORY!! :p

yes, i do TRY to steal her food...occasionally and call her those mean-but-cute names....

but....

i love her to bitss!! ♥ ♥ =)

they call it the City of Entertainment

this is probably the 10th-15th time i've been up there and though it was only two days and a bit, i enjoyed it nonethelss. yup, Genting Highlands is the place im talking bout. went there on monday and back yesterday. it was kinda like a love-hate thing for me to go there. it was really fun to be able to get away from the city for awhile and just have fun without really bothering bout anything else but where to eat and what to do next. haha. but at the same time, going there made me wish i could just continue there and not bother bout school and the future.

if you had been up to first world hotel, you would notice the whole place is decorated in a way that makes you feel like you're in some fantasy land. all the colorful lights, music, hustle of people and little buildings that consist of shops. there's even a little bar that has a band playing and singing at night so loud that the whole of first world can hear them. haha. i especially love the night life there and the view is pretty at night =)

took this in the evening though

the point is holidays and retreats, be it far or near, are essential in a sense that they help us to get our minds off the reality for a moment. to just relax and have fun. i believe everyone needs it at some point of another or at least i know i do :p haha.

i'll post some photos here soon. facebook ones will have to wait cause i just deleted my java :p

watch what's in front of you

i never realized i'm that clumsy until recently :p

i've been knocking, hurting and not to mention burning myself quite frequent recently. i dont know why but i guess clumsiness is the only answer. so far my right side wins for the most burns and left side for knocks. so lets see what are they:

a) several little burns on my fingers from cooking.

b) two scratches on my right hand that i have no idea where from

c) a blue-black mark on my left thigh that i no clue from where too

d) a dented bone near the ankle from slipping in a toilet

and...two new ones, got them just less than an hour ago...

e) a bruise on my left knee - hit it at the edge of the computer table

f) a knock near the right eyebrow when trying to take sth from under the bed

yup. i am clumsy. but somehow i'm only clumsy when at home. it's either i dont realize it or that i'm just not clumsy when outside. heh. that's strange.