Luke 6: 27-28

it says "But I tell you who hear me: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you."

wow..bless those who curse you and pray for those who mistreat you? but why? well...of course i know why but can i do it? i dont know. for now? i really dont know if i can do it.
then people will come and tell me "why cant u just get over it and let it go?" dont u think i want to do that too? this is really tiring fyi. and its not that easy. saying is easy but nobody will truly understand because the one who went through it was and is ME. its really not as simple as you think. a kid wont know the meaning of pain if he has not fallen and got himself injured.

however, dont get me wrong, in saying all that i'm not pointing fingers at others for not being understanding because unlike some, that's just not my style. i understand and have been in the position of others in cases like this where words are the only thing we can offer.

that is why i choose not to talk about it anymore cause i know there's no point. all i have to deal with now is myself. unfortunately..haha...i'm a pretty expressive kinda person. i will always want to share my feelings and thoughts, so for now the people i feel sorry for are my mum and brother for having to listen to me. hehe.
but still, God is my ultimate listener...He's the one i tell everything to because i know He can understand me more than anyone can and He wont get tired of listening to me, which is what i really need =)

how does it look?

ok..i got bored with my old template. not too sure if this one looks good.

need some feedback. what do u think?

they are slowly fading, sadly

i know i'm stress when i dont know what i'm doing or what i should do next. and that's what's been happening to me this week :p

yes, my i-think-i-can-fly pic is ridiculously retarded.

Happy Good Friday!

a boring but refreshing getaway

after much pestering from Ivory, we finally gave in. we went to Bukit Tinggi (yes, where the last church camp was held) last Thursday. honestly, it didnt turn out as bad as i thought it would be, surprisingly=)

besides eating and sleeping, there was nothing much we could do there. here's what we did:

Day 1 - arrived at 10.45, ate at around 11.15, took a nap from 12 till 4, ate again, took a stroll, ate, watched Mr Deeds (again!), sleep

Day 2 - woke up at around 8.30, ate breakfast, went to Colmar, Japanese Village and Rabbit park (yes, again! =p), ate lunch at 3, nap from 5 to
bout 7 plus, ate dinner at 8, cousins came for a stay, aunt brought more food...what else...eat la =p

Day 3 - woke up round 8sth, ate super filling breakfast, accompanied cousins to Colmar, Jap Village (that was my4th time!), got back to apt at 1, prepared lunch, ate, packed up and left at 4.

personally, out of everything, i enjoyed the shuttles rides the most. the cool and chilly air and the greens along the way made me feel so fresh ed. a kind of feeling that i can never get in KL. it was sort of an escape from the hustle and bustle of the city. no worries. no track of time. no assignments. no school. nice =)

just in case you're curious of how Bukit Tinggi looks like (which i doubt u are), photos are in my facebook.

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you see..i dont have the habit of reading back whatever i wrote and thus i dont realise the numerous silly spelling and grammar mistakes i made =p haha. i only tend to read my posts days later and "look ivy, there's a mistake there, and there and there..." lol

now i know. read before you post. hehe

You're happy, I'm happy

there's always a time in life where we reach to a crossroad and we dont know which path to take. left? right? a dilemma i would say.

now, at the crossroad, the question is which path is the right one? for my case, it was whether to stand up for myself or do what pleases God. it was so tempting to do the former. i mean, who wouldn't ? it's a natural reaction when we're being treated unfairly especially by people we hold so dear to our heart. however, when the two choices were thrown to me, i immediately knew i wanted to please God more than anything else and that brought me to tears because that meant that i cant have justice for myself. BUT....the image of God smiling down at me and saying "Ivy, I am proud of you." gave me an indescribable feeling that confirmed my choice further. i want my Father in heaven and the God of the universe to be happy, pleased and ultimately glorified with the path i chose.

so what about the 'standing up for myself' part you'd ask. well...God will do that for me! when? i dont know. God works in His own timing and i believe that it will happen at the right time. after all He owns time, He can take as much time as He wants and who are we to question Him right. anyway, time will tell and we'll just have to wait and see =)

3Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; 4perseverance, character; and character, hope. 5And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us. Romans 5:3-5

You are the Hope that leads me on

phew....is the summary my past week.

ever felt like there's just so much going on in your head and your mind just decides to shut off? well...i'm in that state right now. or rather has been since Sunday. heh.

you know there's just so much one can bare, the rest are really left to God. there's nothing much we humans can do than to hope and pray that our Almighty God will carry us through.