do you love me?

was talking to Ivan on the bus the other day on the topic of love. heh. he was saying something bout to say that you love someone is easy but to actually mean it is a whole different thing.

i could not agree more. we can easily say "i love you" to someone every like five seconds. but do we actually mean it? or do we utter those three words just for the sake of it? there is a fine line between saying and meaning those words that many of us still are not able to see it.

the moment you realise you really mean those words is when you are willing to do anything beyond all measures for that person. even if it means risking or gambling your pride, fame, wealth, belongings, family or even life. i don't think any of us have reached to that extent. but i know one person has and his name is Jesus. He has showed and demonstrated the true meaning of love because He IS love.

i bet nobody would ever be willing to sacrifice his life for someone else for the sake of love. not through a cruel death at least. not if he has to be NAILED, crowned with the crown of thorns, whipped all over the body while walking and heading to his death place and mocked and spat at. not a very good idea isn't it if the reason is love? i don't think it is but He thinks otherwise. in the name of love for His people, this man called Jesus is willing to sacrifice himself on that old rugged cross to redeem them from their sins, so that they may gain salvation that is eternal life.

how great of a Love is that?

my joy

And in this crazy life
And through these crazy times
It's you
It's you
You make me sing
Your every line
Your every word
You're everything

i'm a big girl

i dyed my hair.

yes. i did. dyed the first time, no effect. tried again, second time, still no difference. frustrated did the third time...ah..finally. lol. you see...i'm not a very adventurous person and am afraid to take risk. i know dying hair its a no biggie but i was really scared of how the colour would turn out so the first two times i washed it off within 10 minutes. haha. anyways, i'm happy with the result. hehe =p

i believe everything that happens, happens for a reason. and God for sure is the mastermind behind all that. nothing happens coinciddentally or out of sheer luck or hard work but it all happen according to His will and plan. you may not be thankful for it now but in the future eventually, the whole picture will get to you. and that is when, His name will be glorified.

who am i that You are mindful of me?

all i want to say is that I AM HAPPY. hehe =)

will write more the next time. gotta run now. lol

-smiles-

contented i am

what a week. in a good way though =)

im starting to feel the pinch of stress now. it just feels like there's so much to do in so little time. i'm still in the holiday mode i guess. feeling really sleepy these days particularly today. hehe

God's time is always right. you may not fully understand it at that time but as time passes and things happen, only then the picture is clearer. why is it so hard to put our trust in Him? didn't he promise us that He'll never forsake us many times in the Bible?
(No one will be able to stand up against you all the days of your life. As I was with Moses, so I will be with you; I will never leave you nor forsake you. Joshua 1:5, ..."Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you." Hebrews 13:5)

yet there's so much of lack of faith in us. there's just so much pride and self centeredness. all we need to do is ask, seek and knock (matt 7:7). why are we so afraid? the answer lies with us.